Finally approaching the starting line!

[eyesopen]

She feels that I don't appreciate how much work she does as a stay at home mom. And I do say some words of appreciation. I try to always say thanks, and tell her that she is a great mother. I do try and show that I do appreciate her.

I don't have any expectations when I say those things, and most of the success stories I read, are when the LBS has really let go. Getting there is the hard part, and I feel like the seeds of doubt need to be firmly planted first. How do you know when it is really time to start thinking about moving on?

I also think there is someone else. Not sure if it is E or P. I know I posted about it
a long time ago, and it is still in the back of my mind. So tonight after I went climbing I drove by suspected OM house and her car was there. I thought she was working. It does not change anything that I need to do for myself. I wanted confirmation. Like I need to know what I am up against.

I also signed up for the mandatory parenting through divorce class today. So from a outsiders perspective, probably not the greatest of days. Although, I feel only mildly affected by it.

I know I am a great catch, and I am becoming a husband only a fool would leave. My gears have shifted from being impatient to reconcile, to being impatient to be ready to move on. I feel like I am stuck in some type of mental limbo.