My ability to detach seems to be getting better, or at least when something about my sitch gets me down I am able to control my emotions and get back on track much quicker. That is a positive. Have I got there?.....not even close
My W is apparently stalking my facebook or has a freind that is feeding her information. Recently, I had a get together at my house, mostly our married friends. I accidentally tagged a friend from HS that I haven't seen in 20 years on facebook when I was posting about the event. My wife somehow found out about it. She discussed this with a family member and apparently showed some serious signs of emotion, thinking I was possibly pursuing this OW. She even went to the extent of viewing this friends facebook profile and was able to comment about her being attractive. I guess my W was visably upset. I am not sure if this is something I should address, possibly something I should stress about? I am not sure whether it is a positive or whether it is a negative? I just thought I would mention it.
W and I are communicating really well. Were are not what you would consider "freinds", but our line of open light communication is pretty decent at this time. Again, I don't know if this really means anything, but it is obviously a positive in regards to co-parenting and having discussions regarding Daughter. Will it ever turn into anything more? I am not going to hold any expectations, and I am not going to give up hope. I am just running my own race!
During a text conversation today when W was expressing the desire to join a gym. I backslid and mentioned that I would go with her if she wanted. I already joined the gym, but have yet to go for anything more than a tan. She didn't decline, but she didn't respond. I didn't pursue it AT ALL....baby backstep, Grrrr
My GAL activities are doing well. I am going to Daughters mini-cheer event tonight. I will be seeing W there, no feeling of stress or anxiety. I will be flying solo to this event. A month ago, I wouldn't have had the self confidence to go alone. Chalk one up for another positive. My esteem is coming back!
While I was typing this, W sent me a pic of Daughter in her mini-cheer outfit. I wish I could share it here!!!!!!!
That is me for the last couple days. If you stay tuned, you will probably watch me turn upside down again....
