I see that he may be trying to peek out from that tunnel, only I see that he is bring the alien w/him as his new character
My not-h just said to me (as I sat quiet) that he is heading toward acceptance! Acceptance, with all the blah blah spew that this is his life. He said if/when he reaches that point he is going to be more rebellious and I will not like him even more for what he will do because he will be hating himself for do it.
So was I right...he will be bringing the alien character w/him and that's the new forever him. Or, is he scared, worried, seeing that he has not made any changes and even has to face the damage he's created? I thinks it's a combination of everything.
Then he says he doesn't care...and says but your the one who's complaining your lonely. I had to talk...I said "no you don't, I have not said anything to you about my life in about 2 months now, your projecting. He said in the past...I said you don't know me today, by your choice, or anything about my life! He agreed!
He tried another approach to win and said well, I shouldn't speak here in this house, haven't I kept to myself? I said yes, as well as I have been keeping to myself! If you don't want to speak here that's fine, but don't you dare think life in this house has not continued, as life does every single day! He agreed!
Do I continue how I have been...I don't really want to talk to him anymore, but he seems to be injecting himself into our conversations a little more everyday. He is even watching as we speak to each other, and now trying to talk about some of the things he has left behind since MLC that are still there waiting for him, like lots of carpentry work.
I feel as if I am headed into a new phase and am afraid of what to come!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
