i do not have freedome to mull this over and reply at leaisure. will do that tho- so, what is your theory of what the heck is going on with h?
i'm curious like mad. i have no real hope in particular that anything has changed here- just notice he's less likely to avoid me like the plague- but still acts like i've got cooties. oh well- no war- no gunplay- no screamers- i'll take it.
going to go back to fla in couple days- don't even ask. i don't even know why i do it- want to see kids- baby fix i guess is primary motivation. keeping a foot in that life? he doesn't resist so i do it-
wish me luck- i'm flyin blind as usual. i hope your h continues to be "normal" wouldn't it be really nice if you had a little miracle there?
fingers crossed (see what i mean about this stinkin pollyanna stuff? it just pops out of my stupid head like crazy- i gotta grow up.
f4iend just called that his daughter died in a car crash last nite- oh my god- she'was only 30 - had had some drug problems but was on the mend - it's so sad i don't know what to do with my brain. i cannot imagine- howlife altering and for what???? geeez grief stinks and tragedty
oh well- it's on my mind alot - can't shake it- the feeling we only live once and for such a short time-
