Tori, It is true that I don't know what I'll do when/if EA turns to PA. BUt I think my H will file at that point b/c he has insisted during this S he is going to "live as a M man." For him I know he thinks that means no sex w OW. So, I think his way to pursue a PA will be to D me so it's "okay." IDK
Barely saw/talked to H today as he left house immediately when I got home from gym. Saturday we sat at S13s basketball game together and talked about kid issues and a few other misc things. But at least it didn't feel completely uncomfortable.
On SUnday we actually played doubles ping-pong w boys which was fun (or so I thought), but H didn't seem to be too excited about it for some reason. Anyway, maybe it's hard for him to have any fun where I'm concerned. IDK
Have our FC apptmt tomorrow. I am going to talk to C first about what's going on & what I'm noticing w each of the boys then she will meet them all briefly. We will decide how to proceed/ if to proceed at the end of the visit (or after thinking about it).
Thinking today of my mom & what she's going thru at the loss of her BF...I've lost my BF too, except that he's CHOSEN to leave me. That hurts a lot. I know I could be/could have been a better wife (thus the 180s) but I know our M was definitely worthy of saving!! I just wish H would think so too.
What's so great about OW? IDK She's not that much younger/prettier; she has 2 younger children; she has the SAME job I have; she has an angry soon-to-be ExH; ...but H said at one point they (he & she) are both easy-going, she is funny, tells funny stories, they laugh together, she says lots of things to make him feel good about himself, and she "understands him."
How can I possibly be "the better choice" ??? I'm not sure that he can ever can that I am.
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
