BF, you're on the rollercoaster of emotions we all get on. It's good you're not crying anymore, but I think your current feelings may stem from finding out about your H's potential A. You're hurt. Ultimately, it's your decision to continue being patient, but if you love your H, it's worth doing it. If you're doing this for other reasons (fear, what people think, comfort, etc.,) then it's not worth it. At least that's what I feel.
The key word: time. Give yourself time to process your emotions.
