Finally approaching the starting line!

[eyesopen]

Sometimes I swear my w must be on a anti-DB forum. The only thing I have heard from her in regards to our failed r is that I don't appreciate her. She did tell me that she doesn't want to talk about life in general with me, because she is afraid of what I might take from it. Also that she doesn't want to hurt me anymore and that she doesn't want to hurt anymore.

I asked if she was afraid of getting close to me again, and she replied that she is kind of afraid of everything. So I took the oppurtunity to see if I could get her to open up, and asked what she was afraid of? Her response, "lots."

So the D continues to move forward, and I continue to be baffled on how to subtly show her appreciation and detach as well.

I refuse to give up on my family and a woman that I love. I feel like will be stuck in LRT forever. I had a down day yesterday, the first in awhile. I have not shown her anything but my positive side in months. I focus on my kids and myself, and I am enjoying my time with them, and with my GAL as much as I ever have.

So I am just at loss on what to do with one aspect of my life. How do you not give up on what you want, by giving up on what you want?