I finished re-reading my bootcamp thread and wow, have I changed. Probably the biggest difference to me is the mental turmoil is mostly gone. Yeah, I still have a lot of the same feelings, but my mind isn't spinning out of control the way it used to. There's much more calmness.
That said, some recurring themes:
- still struggling with patience - need to re-focus on being a good listener - need to continue GAL and turning down W's invitations more
I was kinda shocked that Mach told me in July to start focusing on me, to GAL, to turn down 2/3 of W's invitations and looking back, I've only started doing that in the last week. I had done some GAL, but was still way to available to W.
Originally Posted By: Mach1
It is YOU that she is looking toward for her information. She is testing you to see how things could maybe be different than what you have shown in the past. It is YOU that she is looking at to see if she feels understood, or judged.
It is YOU that she is looking toward to see if she gets all giggly inside when you "bone her Chicken"...
It is YOU that she wants to light up when you see her, or she sees you...
Your life is a test...it always has been a test.
Ah...now that makes a lot of sense. I need to stop looking to her for answers, and spend more time looking to myself. Less time in fix it mode, and more time in listen mode.
