The court dates do stress me, but I'm trying to let it go. I had too many expectations tied to the first appearance and it hit me like a hammer.
I understand, yet I wasn't referring to you.
This thing...is still out there, floating around like a balloon at a skeet shooting competition.
Every time it gets closer, SHE holds that decision in her hands. To delay, to proceed....it's a killer for her.
Think about this...
If you were making a decision in your life, a huge decision, that would impact your family, and perhaps future generations of your family....
Would you ask questions, and test things ?
Would you poke and prod, and find out truths before making that decision ???
Relax my Brother...
It is YOU that she is looking toward for her information. She is testing you to see how things could maybe be different than what you have shown in the past. It is YOU that she is looking at to see if she feels understood, or judged.
It is YOU that she is looking toward to see if she gets all giggly inside when you "bone her Chicken"...
It is YOU that she wants to light up when you see her, or she sees you...
Your life is a test...it always has been a test.
With that....
Are you REALLY the person that you have been for the past few months ?
Or are you the person that you were, before this happened ??
The best part, is that YOU get to decide that one...
Don't underestimate the power of what she is, or isn't thinking....
You still seem to communicate, so why not ask ????
Try this...
Look her in the eye, and tell her...
Rather than assume, I have noticed that you seem a little off the past few days...
And if you want to share, I will happily listen, no judgement, no fixing, simply an ear for you.
