LA thx for chimimg in. This helps. Yes I decided to stop taking it personally. In a round about way my W let me know she wasn't up to cuddling anymore. Like Bond always says "don't you realize it is on her" dont take it personally. I did pretty good. In the past I would have started to say "what's wrong" etc.. This time I said I understand especially not feeling well. Last night I slept next to W with no cuddling. Doesn't matter anyways. Typically by 3 am we have both kids in bed with us.
I just have this terrible feeling of fear that she will revert back to her old ways. I'm trying to overcome it. 12 step describes it as "waiting for other shoe to drop"
