Amazing, Vero! I hope you can find your love again. I think deep down you probably know if it's still there.
My Phone coach made a pretty good analogy about this. He said, "if someone said to you on your wedding day, that in X amount of years you will no longer like this person. What would you have said". I replied there was no way I would believe that. He said, "that is exactly how your W feels today. But, the reality is feelings from the heart are not forever. They are constantly changing". That made some sense to me. I hope it makes some sense to you, Vero. I think you just need to be open and love with your head for a little while. Your heart just might follow.