I want him to be happy

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Feeling down today. The more I read his email he sent me last week the more I'm convinced he is done and wants to move out. The hardest part is he doesn't look/act like it at home. My perception of "done with somebody" would be he/she would not even want to see each other, talk each other or have dinner together..

If anyone has time to read my posts, please share your thoughts on LM. The literal 180 on that matter would be me initiating it but my H sleeps in a separate bedroom and I take the sign as "Don't even seduce me"

I've been doing good as far as improving myself - but once a day or so I have these moments when I feel really down. I was acting happy all morning and as soon as he went out now, I broke down on the floor.

I need strength.