Just a quick update. I'll provide some more details later when I can.
My W and I did get together to talk the following week after we go together to talk the first time. I left the conversation a little discouraged, and we didn't set anything else up. I felt like about 3/4 of our conversation was necessary. I did thank her for getting together with me to talk and paid for her meal. Oddly enough, I was feeling a little more encouraged in the days after our talk. The thing that's agonizing about it is that were having the kind of hard, difficult conversations we should have been having when we were still together. Also, I am very confident when she goes into the past, that I'm not the same man at all I used to be. TBH, it's very hard for me hear about my mistakes of the past from the person I hurt, or neglected. I wish for a whole bucket of mulligans. I do need to keep in mind that I only made some of the mistakes, but I do have to own my own mistakes.
Last week turned out to be an interesting week. My W got fired from her job on Monday. She texted me to let me know. I texted her back that I was sorry to hear it and asked if she was OK. I ended up just following up Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday of that week.
Thursday was also interesting. My W was on her way to pick up my S, and called me while I was at work. She followed up with a text. She was stranded on the side of the Interstate. She had run out of gas. Since it was cold out and I really didn't want her walking along the freeway, I left work, picked her up, went home and got a gas can, and got her back on the road. It was something I just felt I needed to do. I really didn't have an ulterior motive.
I had intended to get back to her on the D paperwork and what I had learned about refinancing my house. Because of the chaos of last week, I didn't do it. I am mentally planning on doing it this week.
