When do I "Do Something Different"?

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Can't get pregnant with my child, I have a vasectomy. She was going to be homeless due to some unforeseen circumstances. We both agree that moving in together was rushed, it was sort of forced upon us.

So I get in these moods where I want to contact her. I want to try and reason with her. I want to just talk to her and spend time with her.

Then, whether I should be with her or not, I realize that those actions weren't getting me anywhere. So I repeat to myself not to contact her, not to chase, not reason or beg, and to just follow the DB rules.

So now I'm thinking that I need to stay off the forums for awhile. Just start an actual paper journal or something. Either things will play out like you say and it'll turn around or I'll finally get to a point where I stop stressing about her and the kids and move on.