Read Laws of attractions and it makes sense. Trying to change my mindset and stop thinking about D (it's tough but forcing myself to do it). Just got first set of interrogatories from W's lawyer yesterday. So much BS in these things... Oh well got to fill it out but I'll take all 10 days to do it.
After my 24 hour beatdown of myself after starting fight I've been in a good mood. Yesterday had a blast at a charity dinner with a bunch of friends. Went longer than I expected so working with 23 4 year olds at early church service this AM was a little tiring (sure glad I don't drink anymore). Before that spent day with family and I acted like nothing happened in fight on Thursday. My morning workout got cancelled so we went to gym and ran, very surprised that W got on treadmill next to me. She usually works out away from me so surprised me that of all times to run next to me is one day after huge fight. I'll never understand WAS's (or women in general. Didn't say anything or show anything to W.
Today went to church and spent rest of day with kids. We're getting ready to go swimming right now. W called to ask if she could join us since she's on her way home.
Church service today was about looking to God when dealing with difficult people in our lives. Instead of blaming them for all the wrongs they do to you and trying to change them to what we need them to be he said we need to look at ourselves and look to God to help us fix ourselves. He also discussed fight or flight tendencies but said to be like Jesus the third option is to forgive and have patience. It felt like pastor was preaching directly to me (again) and he had just finished reading DR .
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
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