Maybe my H isn't in MLC, but just doesn't love me anymore. He acts pretty normal, except for those odd things I've noted. He's friendly to me, seems to want to hang out with me, etc. Yet, he still wants to be S or D. I don't know if there's OW. I won't sneak to find out. He's admitted to going on dates. Perhaps, the grass is greener on the other side, for him and for me. Or, maybe just different. There's no going back now. It's all been said, and done, on my side. I dreamed about it last night. So I had to let it all out here.
I dunno .... it's all confusing, and I am keen to get it over. I cannot see myself taking a chance on another man. That's what we do. We put our trust, even our very lives, into the hands of these men, only to have it hit us back in the faces. There are other things I can be doing with my life, instead of wasting it on someone who just doesn't care.
Mein Gott, it's so discouraging when he starts yawning when I discuss my stories. Sometimes, I forget myself and start yammering on about university, then I get the blank look. Yet, my D20 does most of the same things as me (thank goodness, she's someone I can talk to about these things) and he acts all interested. How does he stop himself from yawning then? I got such a fantastic feedback from stage play prof. and I was almost beside myself waiting for D20 to get up so I could show her. She was so proud of me.
Okay, thinking over ... back to writing
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
