House for sale. So Sad. Family Breaking Up (pt 3)

[FloydMan]

I do them because I do want to. Things I have done for 17 years. For 17 years I have brought her a fresh cup of coffee, usually to the room to wake her up with or one for the road. She always loved that. I was cleaning out some drawers and I assume this type of thing will happen a lot over the next while, as I came across some gift cards given to me over the years. She always would write specific messages in them. This one was from 2004 telling me how proud she was to be my wife and how much she loves her family and that she loved me so much and to keep my promise to look after myself since my near death health problem a couple years before that in 2001. She did save my life back then and dealt with me in the hospital for several months as d14 was only 2 at the time. I must say, I did for a while but did not live up to that promise. I am very healthy now, but was not looking after myself from 2007 - 2011. I was working hard, making great money, lost a major account and worked another back to make it up within a year, the stress, the coaching, her spending habits, fathering, domestic duties etc etc created bad eating and other unhealthy habits and the stress showed. i wanted to change jobs as i hated mine but money was so good and she liked spending it. Still does. I did what i thought best for everyone. The strain I am sure showed in ways I did not realize. I lost myself and was not the guy she knew.... a silly goofball, handsome dude, and not using my brain anymore.