Wife was just here picking up her dog. She kinda gave me a "buddy" hug, but that felt awkward. She asked how I was doing, very superficial like. She really didn't care as far as I could tell reading her body language. Then she turned this around to be about her, "Did you see my pictures I posted", "We went white water rafting", "It's very hot and humid it Bali, blah, blah, blah". This is typical
She then went on to ask if I had time this week to talk. I asked about what and she said, things and the "agreement" stuff. Before she left, she had a package from our mortgage company, so she maybe trying to line up a buy out of the house. I think she's a bit delusional that she'll be able to afford the house and her condo. She has a contract for the condo until the end of September. I asked if she wanted to talk now and she said she didn't have time. Like she has someplace to be...Or she has to talk to someone/lawyer to get everything lined up. I doubt if it is as simple as getting the legal separation signed. I agreed that I would meet her somewhere on Wednesday. That's a night I won't be looking forward to.
I did decide to not do the mediation for separation. If my W wants to move forward with a separation then I will retain a lawyer to write the paperwork and get it in place. We've already spent several hundred dollars on a mediator who did not complete the documents to my satisfaction. If I'm going to throw money into this I'd at least like to have something I could use.
I have to say she does seem happy and maybe I am really the one making her unhappy. It also crossed my mind that she is probably dating and found the "soul mate" she's been looking for.
On a brighter note...As part of my GAL, my friends are participating in a sail boat race from Massachusetts to Bermuda in June. I will be part of their team. It will be over my 50th birthday and one of the guys (I grew up with) will be celebrating his 50th in May. So we've decided to celebrate while we are in Bermuda. I've also invited my dad, aunt, uncle, sister and brother in law to come to Bermuda and meet us there. And they are! I love my family to death and this is will be something for all of us to cherish. This comes at a time where my family is still in so much pain from my mom dying in October.
