Soul.Searching my way back.

[Soul.Searching]

Yeah. After more thought I agree FM.
So H got my kids to call me today. I asked D9 how she was and she replied " Not too good" (She didn't sound good.) apparently she got sand in her eye after sliding down sand dunes. That was in the morning and she said she had not done anything else all day because it is hurting her too much.
H or his GF had already tried all of my suggestions, except taking her to the doctors. Apparently there are none open.
D9 has a very high pain tolerance, so if its hurting her that badly even after panadol, then it's not good.
S8 was telling me how another child got burnt by the fire they have going!
Last time H had them, they came back very badly sunburnt.

I hate it when H had them. I don't trust him and I feel like I don't know him anymore. It kinda feels like leaving my children with a stranger, which I would never do.
When ever I talk to them when they are with H all I can hear is other children running wild. Screaming and fighting. I hear his GF yelling at her children telling them to "Get over it" or " Suck it up" it seriously sounds like a bunch of feral bush pigs.

I don't like,... At least when he was staying at his Mums, I knew they were safe.

Last time he brought them back they were both starving. It was 4:30pm and they said all they had eaten was toast for brunch!

I hate this.