Funny because I wan't sure what to do tonight when I see W and I was going to confirm whether I should just keep my mouth shut. I thought I should just let it go because as you guys said I've already apologized so nothing else I can do. Part of me wishes we could talk about it so I could try to explain it was a momentary lapse and not how I really feel but I know it wouldn't do any good so will just read and go to bed early. Going to let myself feel bad rest of day and force myself to move forward tomorrow. First non sick day I've not worked out in a while. I won't let this feeling continue. Tomorrow is a new day.
My BF who is only friend that knows all details asked me what she said during the argument. She actually said quite a few awful things to me as well, many unprovoked subject changes. It was just an ugly night all around. One thing that bugs me in sitch is I've felt terrible and apologized and no chance she'll apologize and will use it to motivate her to continue on. Nothing I can do about it so no point dwelling on it any longer. I won't lie, I'm not looking forward to this weekend.
I know I've said it before but I'm really thankful for you guys. You helped me through a really bad night and day.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
