What I'm learning from H stages, disappointment.

[albamarie]

I'm a real believer in us all being proud of our strengths and accomplishments even if we're sometimes forced to deal with things we don't want to

That's right! If we can get just get past the idea that life isn't perfect or mapped out to always get better and better without fall back, we can be more prepared for things that happen out of our control.

I am getting ready everyday for the fall out this is sitch sending my way, I know I haven't seen anything yet. There's only a few ways for someone as sick as my H can go and it's not looking hopeful!

Yesterday, H spewed to an empty room and walked over to me and said - let me change my mind about my family and life when I'm ready, on my time.

I didn't say anything! Time will tell...I really hate the idea of being a D grandma, this is exactly why I was so sad in the very first place knowing that future events would suck as a divided family.

I feel like we made it just sooo far and then BOOM! He's going to be 53yrs old next month, I feel like "come on man, get with the program, this is ridiculous already" I am all out of sympathy!

But, I am ready for a new life, new turns, and he doesn't have to come along for the ride!