Spartan, it is when I decided totake all the walls down and put myself out there completely, that I began to be okay with the fact that H and I may never have an R again.
The letting go and vunerability is certainly not easy, because we know the pain.
As to the backslide, it happens-move on. You can wake up every morning with that feeling but it won't changed what happened. Just continue on.
Also, it is time to explore the thought of why you think you may be done and why you are DBing now.
Was wanting W back a gut reaction, or is this "Haven't been happy" a justification for your actions and feelings right now?
