Geeez - you echo my thoughgts so well. i don't know how we ever get our brains to quiti 'spinininig'. like youo, i'm a suck it up and get the job done kinda gal. maybe if we werre increrdibly sappy and needy they'd be busy taking care of us insteaad of freaking out/ (just an icky little thought - tho, then they'd be doing what they are because of tht) i have a notion no matter what and who we are or were - they'd be doing exactly what they are.
my h is a tekkie freak too- i have successfully resisited all urges to find out more. i cannot tolerate the little i do know- i swear, when i have to turn on his computer to print something- my stomach still flip flops because there is where i first found out anything! sad huh?
[quote] still hate that tightrope feeling of not knowing how much I should respond to him and how much I should ignore him. He seems to be pretty happy around me, always wanting to tell me something new. I hate that he has such an avoidance personality and has buried all of his problems for so long. Makes me feel like this will go on for a long time because he is not going to deal with any of his demons. He will just keep ignoring them. It's been two months since I've had any kind of break down in front of him, so I am happy for that.
my thouoghts exactly- right up to the two months since any breakdown- you are doiing extremely well i think - for this stuff being so recent for you. i'm keeping busy and lookinig normal to the world- and it's been a heck of a lot longer getting here than you. you need to pat yourself on the back for your staunch nature and keeping together for the kids.
isn't it amazing what we can do when we HAVE TO?> I'VE though a few times in life that i managed to c ope bettter than i'd ever have thought in the real clinch - it's something to know- your inner reserves and "steel". sad to have to find out- particularly like this- but nevertheless.
i list almost daily the good things about my life- keep myself even handed a bit and remembering to not discount any blessings however small. somehow helps me keep perspective ] it's just an all bad sitch no matter how we slice it- i'm sorry you have to be going thru this. i read your posts and feel a kindred spirit- i truly wonder what will be in our lives in fiveyears time.
oh well- good luck and keep your spirits up best you can if possible. i tell myself all the tijme i can always walk away tomorrow - we do have that power - should we want it. you've got those kids to keep you focused on the bigger picture- that wiill help too -
