We create many things in our minds to support what we're feeling.
I just made the biggest mistake of my life. I've never felt lower or more ashamed than I do right now. W noticed i was upset and picked fight and stupid me jumped in. I haven't leaned a dang thing. It escalated and I told her I saw phone and I was sick of the lying. She asked what I thought I saw and I said she knew exactly what I saw. She said she's sick of the accusations and this is exactly why she's getting out because i hadn't really changed and I never would. Guess what, it wasn't OM's number, it was very close but not his. It was one of her friends. I can't believe how stupid I am. I just blew months of DBing and likely lost my family and any chance with W. If I were her I wouldn't R with me. I make myself sick!!! How in the world could I be that stupid???
Please no 2x4s on this one, I honestly don't know if I can take one right now. I know what I did wrong. Just disgusted...
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
