Tori, what do I want to change?? Well, plenty lol: I guess the most important to me right now is listening and validating feelings. I tend to want to fix everything and don't really listen. I'm already working out in my brain what to say to them before they finish. I need to let people know my wants and desires better, I do not communicate them very well. I need to stop trying to control situations and let people live or die by their decisions (not die literally). I need to control my boundaries better and not get resentful when I don't protect myself. If I do not protect me no one will.
SS the desire for a relationship is strong for me as well. I am not going to be romantically involved with someone (if we get divorced) before I marry. I want my new relationship to built on something other than passion/sex (mind you those are nice to have but probably only about 10% of an actual relationship). I am really working on making myself a better person and that begins with discipline. I miss the companionship and being able to just share what happened in my day with someone. Yet, I do not want to rush into another screwed up relationship.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
