Courageous, bold, and authentic. You said, it Subguy. Thank you. I love you too, and I know that staying close to God is the most important key to overcome any challenge, including this one.
Andrew, thank you for the support and kind words. This might be my last thread, but I will continue checking on you guys from time to time. Plus I will post when something significant happens--e.g. my book becomes a best-seller, winning the lottery, dating Zac Effron, etc :-)
Eyesopen, you're right. Now I decide where to go. I know I don't want to waste one more second, but I also want to be patient and kind to myself, so if I feel sad for a while or not motivated, I'll let it be.
Sweetbaby, I'm not familiar with your story, so I see how you're feeling the same. It's good we're here for each other.
Ruby, thank you for your words. You've been there for me too, and I will check to see if you were able to start your own thread.
Spartan, I read your post many times. It makes me feel so good about myself. Thank you.
AS, you're right. We never know. My H is the only serious R I've ever had, so it's hard to imagine having that level of closeness and intimacy with anyone else...but we'll see. His affair and subsequent "dating" escapades kind of ruined the image I had of him and of us. So it doesn't feel that special anymore. I'm a hopeless romantic, and this definitely killed the romance. The love is still there, though.
Grace, good mental image. I'll shelve my feelings on the highest shelf.
Thank you all. Today was okay. No news from my H, so that's good. His uncle and cousins have commented on the fb pictures I posted of the CA trip. So I'm sure he's reading the comments and looking at the pictures through their pages. Wish you guys could see the pictures. They're awesome. One of my favorites is the picture of a giant crab made of sourdough bread that they made at Boudin. Very cool.
