Thank you all. While I would say that it's a sign I should talk with him more, it just makes me feel better about things and end up hurt, again. And also I think it sends him the message that I'm ok with these living arrangements.
I see what you mean about the affairs. It probably would just hurt more to know. He was accusing like that long before I had texting conversations with that one guy. And he had the conversation that if I should decide to do that I should let him know - so he wouldn't get STD's - makes ya wonder.
I told him to quit bringing up the guy I had talked to and I got a text bashing as usual, this is one similar to what I get each time there is some sort of spat - 'instead of admitting any wrong doings, showing remorse, being honest, or owning it or apologizing, the table gets turned on me...therfor we are still apart. Because I know you are saving face and making this all on me on your side of the world....playing dumbfounded about why I'd choose to not be with you, that I have gone crazy. Now...I've said my last peace. And this will get brushed off with the rest of what I say. And if it does, the point of why I moved out this long will make sense.'
Huh?
I'm tired of placing fault. Long ago, when things started getting bad and he told me that I had created him from ignoring him for 3 years, I told him I was sorry if he felt that way but I couldn't do anything about it now, we needed to move forward. I am always the one apologizing.
So I just responded that I wasn't going to have that conversation at work or through long texts. If he wants to talk about that, we would talk face to face. But gee, just move on. Im' not going to go shout from the roof tops that sometimes I nag, etc because my family and marriage are most important to me. Pretty sure most know this. And I don't let on that I'm perfect. But the fact is still that his idea on how to work on it was to move.
Now he wants to come work on his car next week and promised to 'stay out of my way'. Fun fun.
