Trying to move forward

[Dewayne]

I appreciate it guys. I didn't read much last night. I went to bed and mainly just thought. Prayed and talked to god. I understand how faith works, I guess I need more faith to get going. There's a difference in faithless praying and faithful praying. I've been praying and talking to god, but realizing that I have no faith. I pray, but have no faith that it'll work out.

So I woke up this morning, realizing all the CRAP that I lost! Lemme make a quick list, just so you guys get a grip of how much went down.

Cash: Over $36,000
Cars: 67 Camaro SS ($19,000), 74 Nova SS Street Drag car ($8,000)
Airbrush Equipment: Several Thousand

Hand Tools, Air Tools, Nail Guns, 4 Different Sanders, 2 Dremel sets, Saws out the wazoo, Miter saw, radial saw, circular saw, Sawzall, Table Saw, Jigsaws, $600 Aircompressor for Airbrush stuff, $300 Aircompressor for the tools, 18' Car trailer, several high end R/C cars and trucks, extension cords 150' HD ones, man irreplacable vintage board games like Heroquest with custom modifications etc, irreplacable artwork I've done since being 10 yrs old, $500 generator, excercise equipment,

I could go on and on. Might as well say we had a disaster adn lost everything BEFORE the Divorce. What happened was the wife was suppose to have taken care of rent on our building for November. She didn't. She used that money to pay for the Lawyer instead. So one day I'm going back to the haunt to get another load of stuff, the doors were locked and had a "foreclosure" letter all over it. Locks were changed. They did it without going through the legal system, which I could possibly get a lawsuit out of.

But yeah, I lost everything. Starting a haunted house was my wife's dream as well. Soon after taking Celexa she no longer cared about it and started caring about hanging out with her new teenage friends.