Separated and confused

[jendp]

Thanks for the comments, I have been reading but needed to take a break from posting. Needed to get through the holidays and just focus on family and enjoying every moment. Now that the holidays are over H has contacted me and is now moving full speed ahead toward the D that he wants. I am so down and depressed since talking to him, I am trying so hard to stay positive but it is a challenge.

I think he has made an inner vow to himself to 'never hurt me again' because he says that every time we talk. If that is why he is seeking D, he is so wrong in his motives. I don't know what I can say or do to show him that D is not the way to achieve this. I am trying to release it all to God to let him deal with this, I pray all day long but releasing is the hardest thing I have ever tried to do. I have negative thoughts and images playing in my head constantly now and I'm trying hard to stop them, but I feel overwhelmed by them right now. I am seeing this as a temporary situation, looking forward to better times to come through the grace of God.