Right now you're living in what may be in the future and it's causing you anxiety. Stop. I understand your concern but but it may or may not happen.

You will be strong enough to face what ever happens. It may hurt like he!! but you will handle it.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss