In the last couple months I feel like I have really opened my eyes and made some changes in my life, call it persnoal growth. I realize my situation has only just begun, and I will really need to make bigger strides on detaching, but I have done pretty good lately on GAL and "acting as if". 180's are something I am struggling with, but doing the best I can.
Last night I got some news that set me back a little. A mutual friend of my W and I phoned me to give a little pep talk. She visited with my W lastnight and felt she needed to fill me in. While I know that I should have turned a def ear or simply not discussed it with her, I still wanted to know. She expressed to me that my W's conviction to leave our family behind is stronger than ever. Apparently, my W has formed a plan for her escape, right down to the date. She has not filed for D because she realizes that she would no longer be able to live in the apartment I own. Therefore, she is plotting, planning and simply being nice until she can get her feet on the ground financially. This was a pretty tough pill to swallow, but basically what I have known all along. It just hurts is all. I honestly think I am struggling the most with the fact that my W is giving up on our family and our marriage so easily. Either way, I am trying to get my focus back on me. These little setbacks are becoming easier to deal with, but unfortunately for me, today will be more of the roller coaster ride...Weeeeeeeeee....not fun!
