hey hi
trying laptop - finger not so familiar with keys and hope to God i can erase histoy okay.

I AM GLAD billie joel got whata he dserved - evreyone shold - us inlcuded - man - thiis keyboard stinks

ANYWAY - since i'm not quite back to full pollyanna stature yet- here's me tihnking if we got what we deservedi t wuld all be gret stuff.

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maybe like me you no longer value the opinion of someone not worthy of having one about you.


maybe you are rite and i'm done caring what his guy thinks of me. one an hope

he has filled up his (i just like being alone) other life with people that even i can see are smiialr to me - or fragments of me. one peson for this, one for that. i wonder what the hcek tha tis and were t al leads? to werd.
i'm sure he doesn't see it at all..

i may run off quicly- so if i disappear you knowm y dril here.

I WAN TO SAY dawn - that in my experiene - havnig him out of my face enables me to participat with 'theor' about this all in a more philosophial annre. whereas - having ihm next to me in bed nd here in my life is a waaay diferent manne. it's alot harder than when he's mia. no kidding - you are having the hard way alllll the time. there - you hjaving to witnss all the everything every day. i can feelm y stress level up a bit = you are rite. i's more REAL when they are ite there with you. i'm not sue whether that is god or bad - it jus sems to be the cas. the "issues" are more in th forefront of your life daily and minute to minute - rather than of iin the back of your brain.
I'd say of hte two of us - your "job" is the harder one.

so i'm apprciating alllll the work you do on this and all the incredible stress you tolerate (and i sounds like you're doing pretty well all things being considred - in general - in life) i admie that. your litle lite is still on- and i think alot of people who hae endured what you have - probalbly canot say thatl.
his keyboar stck - sorry for the mes s- back later

xxoo sitll on track ;mostly i think - well, no gunplay or "discussions" or anything deadly here. fingers crosed & odaat

onee day at a time - ta da. is that official? or did i make i up.??

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