Trying to move forward

[Dewayne]

I'm very down. hard. tears really.

I talked to my daughter tonight and I noticed her vocabulary is getting much better, (she's 3) and getting so smart and I'm missing it.

Day after day I sit here and look at her corner with all the toys and can't help but to .. . .


she goes back and forth from wanting me and then wanting mommy. She said last few times she was here taht 'mommy hate me" ..

they say taht god doesn't present a challenge to you that you can't handle, but good gawd I think he's pushing my limits.

I have no fuel, no money. She is out of fuel and money and gets paid in a few days. I woulda told her to bring D tonight but she couldn't afford it.

Shooting face in Battlefield 3 again, just not helping like it did 2 weeks ago. (internet is sorta fixed)

Gonna go do another video log and possibly go to bed, read and pray a bit. try to sleep.