thanks, for your posts! I am a little sad about the sitch and not having my H, I'm so happy he's not home though, that I would except him moving out as a consequence if he does spew.

H not coming home has made my "want" stronger to no longer live with him. I can go forward in life without knowing him, and be happier for it. There wouldn't be much reason to deal w/him face to face, and we already never talk on the phone.

Does anyone know of a thread were the lbs is were I am at, or an archive post similar?

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!