T^2 and Snodderly, thank you both for your thoughts and encouragement!
I have gone into "DB mode" (avoiding anything emotional or relationship related) so thoroughly that it never occurred to me that I may be hearing some things that indicate that he is at least thinking about what he has done - so I have been unprepared the last two times that personal stuff has come up. Thank you for saying I did OK. I about fell over when I heard it. I just felt that I somehow missed an opportunity to get him to open up a bit more.
That it may have been "a peek out" of the tunnel is great!
This is now the second time he has caught me off guard with something he has said. I, too, was wondering if the fact that he was feeling the distance I was creating between us was affecting him. I truly believe he thought he, I and whatever GF he had would go skipping off into the sunset together and that did not happen.
Thank you as well for reminding me to keep my expectations at zero. I am doing my best to do that and stay the course. The strange thing is that although it is nice to be validated, I didn't really need it. Even if he never admitted it, I knew this was something that he would eventually feel. Our connection was strong. I think I will be much more impressed with "I want to try again" but I am thinking that may take awhile, if we ever get there at all. Goodness knows, there are so many issues between here and there.
He called last night but I was not home to take the call. No message, though. I have not attempted to contact him in return.
So, steady as she goes! Do I bring up the apology or do I just leave it alone until/if he ever brings it up again? I am assuming that I leave it alone. The funny thing is that I do not know if I am ready for those heavy conversations.
