Came home from my trip. Kissed my wife in greeting. Didn't turn her cheek to me like she has in the past, but didn't return my kiss either. Our youngest was there though and that probably factored in. just this past year, we used to be very affectionate to each other. it was kind of a game that when they would see us kissing, the kids would try to separate us.
No feelings of warmth from her the whole day. Pretty cold to me actually. I feel like we are friends who aren't even close enough to confide in one another.
I did find via the grapevine that she was sick this weekend.
I drop her off at the airport today. I asked if she would like to do lunch before and got a negative reply. She wants to sleep in. That will set her up with a late breakfast, so she won't be interested in lunch.
This will be the first time she has left town on her own since we had our kids. They are accustomed to me being gone quite a bit. They are going to miss her. She will call, but I'm pretty sure it will be to check up on them only.
This disconnect between us has been running now for about 6 months. I just don't see it going on like this forever. Trying to keep my chin up, keep a PMA and GAL. It's difficult. My life has been my wife and our kids. I'm reading The Power of Positive Thinking by Dr.Norman Vincent Peale. Lots of good advice. It really helps me keep my spirits up.
