Kimmerz, Kml's posting makes sense...she's right...normal men wouldn't even think of going near the wife of the man who had shot them. They would avoid the woman as much as possible.
I have often wondered about the relationship between your xh and the ow prior to the shooting, but didn't want to say anything because there appears to be some key issues missing from the pre-crisis scenario. It's water under the bridge now, but kml's posting does present a different scenario and why the shooting may have taken place.
Please take care of yourself and know that this wave of emotional hurt will wash over you and you will release it when you are ready. Unfortunately, there will be times when something will pop up that will create an emotional wave of hurt. However, as you walk the path, you'll learn how to deal w/it and become stronger afer each wave.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.