Just catching up on your thread. Sorry your H is causing you such stress. You seem to be handling it as well as possible given the circumstances.
It's good that you can enjoy being alone. It doesn't mean you always need to be alone or that you will end up alone. It just means you can be okay or more than okay if you aren't in a R or are just exploring life on own.
This could open up a whole new world for you, especially when the birdies have left the nest! (Not saying to want to rush this time!)
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.