When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[Big Bruce]

Well,
It's not that I don't listen to what you say but I speak with other people too, and what they say is literally the opposite of what you guys say to me.
Contradictory messages. I try to tell them I was the vilain, but then my friends prove to me that I really was not.

In fact, I think that yes I carry most of the responsibility, but her reaction for 7 months now is as bad if not worse as my previous behaviour.
I loved life. Now I don't love life anymore, nothing is left.

And my family was very friendly to her. My parents invited us every Sunday after church for the Sunday family meal. And they let us live in the first floor of the house for free for a year.
And one day, after we had our own place, W kicked them out of our house (!)
They are very kind people, and they are now praying that W would change her mind and come back.

Anyway, what am I supposed to write on the Valentine's card?
If I have my S write "Mommy I love you, Bruce" It might be mis-interpreted as me trying to pass a message, and still pursuing...

Another guidance needed : W sometimes ends her emails by "have a nice evening", or "hope you have fun", etc... whereas my emails as instructed by you are very short, one or two sentences max to the point and without any such things as "good bye", and even less "have a good day".
Should I keep sending my "short shaved style" emails, or also respond with "have a nice evening" type of things at the end?

Thank you for your advice.
B