Trying to move forward

[Dewayne]

Wife txted a bit ago. I waited a bit to respond. It was about watching the kiddo.

I can't help but to feel hardened to the fact that she only txts about a sitter. It sometimes makes me angry, and I feel like saying to her "NO! You said you wanted to be friends, but yet you ONLY txt when you want something from me"

But I know that's not right. So I don't know. I wished I could go to sleep and wake when this is over.

She txted a few times, all about the same thing. Told her I needed stuff for her to snack on and eat for dinner etc. We had a convo about that and then she asked if I could watch her an additional day... so she could take a bath.

It's still killing me. But I am fighting emotions a lot better than I was. She did txt me the other day and said that Jack Reacher wasn't going to be playing anymore and apologized that we didn't get to go see it together. That is a positive txt I suppose. But after that, it's been... well I don't know, but a few days at least.