H makes it clear every single time that I need to date, I need to find someone etc. etc. I say it is a temp. check. Every single time I remind him that I have a short list; It contains him and Matthew Mc Connaughy. And since Matthew has begun blocking my calls, it is down to him. I have expressed that I am not looking, but neither am I discounting the fact that one day I may be blindsided. It is H's hope, I think, that I could start seeing someone and he wouldn't feel as guilty about his R. He does not understand, I think, that I love him and want to be in an R with him. So he tries to push me away all the time.
I am not saying that W will want to renew R or not pursue D, as you continue your GAL and 180s,but she will trust that you are remaining steady in your actions, thoughts and deeds. Then she can begin to trust you. She still doesn't Floyd...hang in there.
