We went to indoor waterpark (Kalahari) and ended up staying an extra night since we were having so much fun. I forgot my phone charger so I was dark with the world which was nice for me but I need to catch up with you guys. Overall had a really good time and it felt like old vacations. Lots of laughter and good memories. No fights or R discussions, just enjoyed the moment. This weekend reinforced that we really do 'family' good but I know that's not enough. There were a lot of happy looking families but I caught myself whenever a 'sorry for myself' thought entered my head and got it out quickly and got back to enjoying my family.
On the drive back while everyone slept I did keep wondering what is so bad about this? I'm thankful that I'm a person that tries to look ahead more then behind me so I struggle understanding why things that happened 8, 10, +15 years ago are affecting today and our future. I'll just keep working on me and let her figure out her stuff.
I've decided to stick it out and not move. My goal is to change the dynamic of fights (i.e. not have them). If things start heading that direction my goal is to just walk away. First test will likely be later this week, W has appointment w/ her L on Wednesday.
GALing looks good in coming weeks. Next weekend going with friends to Make A Wish charity dinner, following weekend going to conference with a friend all day Saturday, weekend after that is daddy/ daughter dance, and weekend after that is start of cruise.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
