The Waiting is the Hardest Part

[ForeverYoung]

We enjoyed the great Texas weather while visiting my wife's Dad over the past five days. Managed to get in a few fun activities but were somewhat limited on what we could do because of both her Dad's interests, and my wife's recent illness. But worst of all, she had her wall up as high as ever. She just can't allow herself to have fun with me. She is depressed/troubled/quiet much of the time. Wouldn't even accept a hair brushing.

The sharing a bed issue never came up, as our room had two beds. Good thing too, especially the first two nights, as she was hacking up quite a storm. I was happy to not be in the same bed with her. Just being in the same room made it impossible to stay asleep.

Between her cold symptoms... and cold treatment of me, I ended up staying awake much of the night just thinking about everything. I was planning how I need to start truth darting, and letting her know that I'm not waiting around forever. At one point I even convinced myself that a mail order bride was the way to go! I kinda put that one on the backburner for now...

Over the past year I sometimes thought I might be strong enough to wait this MLC thing out. During this trip saving this marriage often didn't seem worth it... maybe not even possible.

When I intervened to stop Dad's dog from potentially running into traffic, he took great offense and went off on me! I apologized, explained the reason for my actions, and said I never intended to step on his toes. Wife backed me up, so I guess that's a good sign! Later Dad apologized to me, but wife is still worried about a couple of the comments from the incident, and the potential fallout when the story gets around.

I feel some truth darts, maybe even a letter explaining where I stand, is coming to a future near us. What do you think?

I'm thinking about asking if she sees any room for us being H & W again at any time in the future.