That's one of the longest explanations I've heard. Look if you don't want to do it, then don't. IMHO she's moved on. You should too.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER