I'm a mother bear so there is never going to be a good enough reason to equal abandoning the kids and causing the amount of pain on them. I understand he is in a place I can't comprehend, but I just can't imagine being in a place where I could walk away from my kids. But likely he doesn't see it the way I or they do. I just don't think I will be able to understand how he could get so low that leaving his kids felt like his only option and could go weeks at a time with no contact. I do feel that at some point ill have more answers and not just speculation, and it will be important for me to be understanding and loving, despite the shock from the resulting actions.
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17