hey hi-

i get that - i try to, sometimes i pick up because i feel like a rat just letting him sit there like a jerk (which he is btw) leaving messages. i would like very very much to be totally and utterly ruthless in this sitch

i am not (sadly). i do manage sometimes tho toignore it. this morning he called a few times- left a couple messages (he never usually does that unless he's steeped in guilt) cripes!!

anyway- ignored that- ignored a few e-mails (can always say i wasn't on line anyway).

today- in particular - for some reason i am just at some wierd point of not wanting to let him off any hooks.

he does what he does - and it makes me feel what i feel.

if he's entitled - so am i. what the heck i do with it all - or about it all- yikes...who knows.

anyway- thanks for weighing in- i'll take any kind of info or input from anyone.

i hate seeing us all here- but i'm sure glad everyone else is out there understanding me.

yay.
xxo