Honestly, I say ride it out because there is no right steps to take so I'm letting nature take its course. The time I'm taking is not to heal us, but to get myself in order. I don't want to live out my future with him.

I don't look forward to the second half of my life with h at all. I want everything that is opposite of him. I want a man, loving, kind honest, with eyes and heart for God, family and me!

I'm stuck here with this not-h living in separate rooms, hearing his spew, seeing his new life style, and I am nauseous. He try's to tell me last night how he's bored like hell, well me too a3swhole, it's Sun night cold as hell, and your a stinky nail biting vampire taking up my family room for your junk. Get the hell out!

But, I can't force that so here I type, no I don't even like the sound of his voice whe he speaks, I think I can actually feel my ear drums cry!

Sorry if the sp is bad, I'm unsung my phone.

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!