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hate to be a pest - but here's what i'm needing man point of view on this a..m..

I thought maybe it was you who said h uses humor to broach a very touchy subject - not necessarily to ridicule - but to ease into it (his e-mail yesterday about want to yell at me today or tomorrow).

so- this business of me being in nj and him in fl. he sees ow. i know it- don't feel the overwhelming distress i used to-

BUT - WHEN he's going to her- with her- just back from there, honestly- i don't' want to "chit chat" with him, i don't want to know him. the longer he is away- the harder it becomes to look forward to seeing him. i hate that he chooses to have that aspect to his life and i cannot put a good face on it.

what the heck? does he think i'm gonna ask what he did for his weekend? get laid maybe, you see how icky i get how quickly.

what's your call? talk or stfu til i'm under strict control?

i'm thinking latter - but wonder if i'm disregarding some olive branch and being a jerk. (tho, mind you, this olive branch in no way inplies any cessation of ea).

whattyasay?

when he calls or e-mails - am i "supposed" to reply - is it good form to do so? if i don't want to hear his voice should i really force myself to rise above this and do it- make the gesture in response to his gesture?

whattyathink about that junk. it plagues me.

i'm a nice guy- i try to be -