W will do what she wants. Time for ME and D3 !!

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GALing has been VERY hard for me. I have to work and also some days I have to look after D3 in the evening while W goes to see OM.

I literarely have NO friends. AT ALL. My best friend for 13 years was my business partner who got on drugs and started the decline in my life. I often think everything that is happening to me was caused by him, or more accurately the fact that I allowed his drama to change me and allowed it for so many years. Now my business is not covering my expenses, my wife is leavnig me because of me being less sexual (because of the financial stress).

So I have been out to play pool and have a couple drinks with a couple of my employees. They are 10 years younger than me but they like me and always want me to hang with them. I have a good time with them because they are young and full of energy, and they have some VERY hot girls in their group. Too young for me but good practice for self esteem etc..

I need to find a GAL that stays true to who I am. I am not a stay out late type of person, and don't really enjoy drinking that much. And the last time I did that, I am sure my W thought it was forced and also fake.

I have always wanted to volunteer for something. Just not sure what.

Have wanted to get involved with the small business association and meet more professionals instead of meeting partying drunks.

But now here it the problem, which probably also affects my sex drive greatly, and this is where my W would be able to see the most change. ENERGY LEVEL!

I am quite a low energy person, and really so is my wife. I think it is the life style we slowly aged together into. We don't get enough exercise, and so sleep is not as satisfying etc. plus I was not keeping up with vitamins.

W sleeps in and then seems to be tired most of the day. I have a similar issue but I push throught it to wake up early to be with D3 a couple hours before work. But by 7pm bed time for D3 we are both done and ready to crash on a couch each and just watch TV. Big part of the decline in the "fun" aspect in our lives.

if she saw me with more energy and getting things done, it would seem very attractive to her also. And i would be fulfilling something I needed to fix for many years now that is hindering my ability to enjoy life.

So suggestions on energy level? Work out? Protein shakes? What do you all do for that?