we got married young and never really dated much so we did not have a chance to grow through failed relationships. We did not get to figure out what we wanted in a relationship and how to ask for it. Basically we did not grow up
The same could be said for me. And now I have the chance to grow up. That whole paragraph is hitting the nail on the head.
I'm getting stronger every day but it's been work, slow, sometimes painful work. For the first 6 months after the BD, I was useless, drug myself to work, was in bed when I wasn't at work, and cried, a lot. I was in a pretty deep depression.
Change does happen I just had to drop the timeline and expectations and keep working on me.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
